...I know, I know.
It seems like it counteracts and counter-productive compared to all that I've been saying all these years.
Please note that I AM STILL investing into dividend stocks, online businesses, "passive-fying" my offline businesses etc...this is just something that I'm mulling over and thinking about.
After all, it is one of my favorite experiences in the world other than
(if you have not yet gotten your 1st dollar of passive income, gosh, I need to create a special all in article how to create your 1st stream of passive income).
...the more I pursue passive income, the more it seems to slow down my passive income streams and eludes me, and it seems to make me unhappy. You know, like the person who wants to make $1M at all costs but when he or she goes through the process, they are unhappy?
Or worse, is when they realized they're unhappy or it's meaningless when they finally achieved (this is the worst - to give up years of energy, love and sacrifice to get something that one doesn't care about after all).
This is probably the same reason why I left one of my physiotherapy start ups that was sold to a larger healthcare group, who offered me good amount to stay, but I wasn't keen nor interested to - staying would be so much more financially good to me (cos my income have dropped more than 90%) BUT my happiness and contentment have skyrocketed 10X at least.
Maybe I'm a fool.
Maybe in 10 years time I'll look back and say to myself, "maybe I should have stayed".
NAH, fuck that. I'm 10X happier today and almost immediately upon leaving, so I can extrapolate that in 10 years, I'll be at least 100X happier LOL.
It's really weird.
I don't know, maybe this is my 35-year-old crisis (I'm actually 37 years old in 2019), when I opted to leave and take a sabbatical to spend time meditating, pursuing other matters like
I've had a few crises throughout my life, those that I can recall being:
I'm also very happy that the persons whom my wife originally partnered with, all left - seeing and hearing what she told me...it's much easier and happier today. 10X too.
Maybe as I'm getting older, combined with the shit that we've been through, and my meditations, thinkings, reflections, readings, have together start to mould and grow me to the next phase of my life.
This is going to be a fundamental truth.
I love fucking and blowjobs too, but am at 37, so that may change when I'm 67, so I'll just try to focus on more time-classic stuff, though I may write on sexual wellness and fucking too.
That being said, my love for recurring passive income and compound interest will always bring a skip in my heart and joy to me, and I always remember fondly my first dollars (which later grew to thousands of dollars) of passive income.
I will have a segment dedicated to how I generate passive income, but I want NigelChua.com to be more encompassing.
Stuff that makes me smile.
Stuff that makes me grow.
Stuff that is win-win, not at the expense of others.
Stuff like courage, truth, hope, faith, love, happiness, productivity and whatnot.
Stuff that makes the world actually better. I want to leave this world a better place with me in it.
Stuff like that.
I know, it may seem like a hard thing, but I'll still remain "soft" like this, because I don't like the "hardness" of the world.
Yeah, that kind.
And I pray that what I do, as you read and follow what I do, that it'd inspire you to build and live your best life, starting today. As soon as you can, and not defer happiness, meaning and love.
I will also be publishing on Kindle, possibly starting with short short books to realize and achieve my dream of being a publisher and living off my writings and publishings.
Today, I start anew.
I walk away from old chains, the people and relationships and memories of those
...I forgive you, but fuck off LOL. I forgive but I don't have to deal or live with you eh =)
Oh, writing like this is nice. It's cathartic, and enjoyable, and maybe this is what "being me" feels like haha.
Mapping out and planning out NigelChua.com is kinda hard.
Maybe cos I tend to think, feel and intuitively lead from a very high and broad perspective and standpoint. Blogging day to day is ok, but there needs to be a general structure so that readers can find what they want.
Maybe cos I want to do an end-to-end thingie haha, this is so me.
But oh well, this is my website, so I'll do it how I like and envision it to be.
I dont think I'll move to WordPress, as I really like Solo Build It - too much pros as opposed to cons with WordPress, and so much easier tech-wise. And it's not as pretty, and that's fine with me. I like it and that's it.
If you want to start a WordPress site, you can consider Wealthy Affiliate (you can sign up for free here for life - one of their strongest points) - they're the "WordPress-brother" to Solo Build It, and they do exactly similar to what SBI does, but in WordPress form.